My Doctor said consume sugar, lots of it. In the means of energy drinks and chocolate, along with a diet coke, a nectarine and an apricot – all about balance.
Go eat sugar.
Well okay, those weren’t exactly her words but via creative interpretation of what she did say that’s the conclusion I arrived at.
Well, okay so she prescribed antibiotics and a second antibiotic is on the cards if I don’t show signs of improvement by Friday. Sugar actually didn’t get mentioned so technically as she didn’t say don’t eat sugar it’s a fair assumption it’s okay to go ahead and eat it.
Fair to say my coping mechanism with being ill isn’t the most nurturing. But I just seemed to fall into the consumeristic bane of purchasing said items. Of course not all is for today, I’ve left some to consol my fevered self with tomorrow. [Although I may have eaten tomorrow’s chocolate already]
I can only put my poor choice down to fuzziness incurred by a fevered mind.
Yeah Right [Tui ad right there].
I spent an agonising 4 days in conflict on whether I should or should not go to the Dr’s. I’ve been doing ill for around 10 days. The thing is I believe I should be able to heal myself, I believe the body has an innate wisdom to be well and knows what to do to be well except this time my body isn’t. I was for awhile showing clear signs of recovery but then floundered big time slipping significantly backwards. Rocked my self belief for awhile, I should be able to do well but I’m not, seems I can’t this time round.
Thankfully logic slipped a word or two in and realising the Dr’s was yet another tool in my arsenal to bring wellness back to my entire being I made the appointment to go.
Good thing is I don’t have pneumonia. Not that it was very likely, in fact it was pretty remote but my sick ego wants a little attention and that sounds wonderfully dramatic and worthy of some sympathy. I do have an infection though that has got it’s claws in.
To make things just a little worse my body has decided to throw in a developing dose of thrush. O.M.G. Really!!!!!
Clearly though I remain firmly in the clutches of a sugar addiction. Crap and bloody crap. As much as being ill pisses me off [even more so because I am missing my grandson fix tomorrow] not being able to bypass the lure of a sugar fix pisses me off more.
I was able to quit drinking and successfully so. You’d think it would be easy to do the same with sugar. I must admit here that this addiction is far worse than my drinking was but the emotional/mental feelings and beliefs that go with it are pretty much the same.
I wish I had a positive ending to this post, one full of self growth and development but I don’t. I guess though I know I will bounce back from being ill and I will bounce back from this sugar overload.
And I will continue to support myself through this one as I did through quitting to drink.
In the meantime I will go and pour another glass of sparkling water [thanks to my awesome soda stream] and park my temperature ridden self on the couch to rest and cool down.
Take care out there people.
In Good Health